ha ha ha

sometimes…all you can do is laugh.

 

“first she was ms. independant & now she’s a diva?!?!?” Imma REALLY need you to make sure when you pick a song for someone, it MATCHES them.

 

 

that is all.

short post – but packed with alot of meaning.

Okay sooooo .. I have less than 15 mins to do this post – don’t ask.

 

I just wanted to tell whoever is left reading this that I am alive & kicking in NY… I think. *making a face* God continues to be good..even when pretty much all the humans in my world have failed me (yes, that includes YOU). Socially, my life pretty much sucks, but what else is new? I’ll make due like always. I miss my girls in VA so fucking much I wanna slit my throat – but then I really won’t see them in a few weeks lolz. For all the juicy juicy dirt, hit the new blog.

 

xoxo

 

 

Oh, sidenote : I hope you’re enjoying my old life..this new one is much cozier - and it smells better. *smiles*

I see the light…

….and it makes me smile. Something I haven’t done in a VERY long time.

thank you

happiness – Exit 27

One of the hardest decisions we ever make in life is leaving a long-term relationship that just isn’t working. When attempts at repairing and working out issues aren’t working, it may be time to examine moving on. We are emotional creatures, and when our heartstrings are tied to those of another, separating from that person can feel like an act of courage. It is not something most of us will take lightly, and many of us will struggle with our desire to stay in a relationship that is unfulfilling simply in order to avoid that pain. We may question whether the happiness we seek even exists, and we may wonder if we might be wiser to simply settle where we are, making the best of what we have.

On the one hand, we almost relish the idea that true happiness is not out there so that we can avoid the pain of change. On the other hand, we feel within ourselves a yearning to fulfill our desire for relationships that are vital and healing. Ultimately, most of us will follow this call, because deep within ourselves we know that we deserve to be happy. We all deserve to be happy, no matter where we find ourselves in this moment, and we are all justified in moving, like plants toward the light, in the direction that leads to our greatest fulfillment. First, though, we may need to summon the courage to move on from the relationship that appears to be holding us back.

Taking the first steps will be hard, but the happiness we find when we have freed ourselves from a situation that is draining our energy will outshine any hardship we undergo to get there. Keeping our eyes trained on the horizon, we begin the work of disentangling ourselves from the relationship that no longer fits. Every step brings us closer to a relationship that will work, and the freedom we need to find the happiness we deserve.

end of the week wrap-up.

“The hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn.
“

one more week – and I plan to set this bitch ablaze.. because I will NEVER cross over it again.

yep

Oh, just another reminder – hit the comment space to get the link to the new & raw blog.. k? k

please enjoy the music while your party is being reached – v.2.0

For my readers who aren’t able to see the video for whatever reason.. it’s Stay by Lisa Loeb.  GO DOWNLOAD IT! Everyone should have this song in this collection, especially if they can relate. Lyrics are below:

“Stay”

you say I only hear what I want to.
you say I talk so all the time so.

and I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don’t belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong ’cause I missed you.
yeah, I missed you.

and you say I only hear what I want to:
I don’t listen hard,
I don’t pay attention to the distance that you’re running
or to anyone, anywhere,
I don’t understand if you really care,
I’m only hearing negative: no, no, no.

so I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
the lover’s in love, and the other’s run away,
the lover is crying ’cause the other won’t stay.

some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
well, this is not that:
I think that I’m throwing, but I’m thrown.

and I thought I’d live forever, but now I’m not so sure.

you try to tell me that I’m clever,
but that won’t take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

you said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, “hey, I can leave, I can leave.”
but now I know that I was wrong, ’cause I missed you.

you said, “You caught me ’cause you want me and one day you’ll let me go.”
“you try to give away a keeper, or keep me ’cause you know you’re just so scared to lose.
and you say, “stay.”

you say I only hear what I want to.

And just like that she was gone.

I know I said the last entry would be it – but I figured I needed some profound parting words – so here they are.

You never thought she would be the one to walk away for good but then she did.
You always thought you would be able to pull her back to you whenever you wanted but then you couldn’t.
She will be your biggest regret.
The one you will think about daily for the rest of your life.
The one whose eyes you could get lost in, whose arms you could melt in.
The one that you never fully learned to appreciate.
The one whose laugh could bring a smile to even the hardest of hearts.
The one who knew exactly which buttons to push and how hard to push when you made her mad.

Soon, when you can no longer smell her scent, when you no longer remember what her skin felt like against yours, when you forget the warmth of her smile and the depth of love in her eyes for you, you will realize that you lost it all.

Take care of yourselves, babies – take care of the ones you love. Let them know you care. Life is short and one day you could lose it all.

Remember : leave me a comment with an email address or way to contact you and I’ll be glad to link you to the new blog   ( it’s not on wordpress, so STALKER(S), don’t try and find me .

follow me.

Okay, so as I said in the previous blog – I’ve moved. If you actually enjoy reading the mess that goes on in my world, leave me a comment on this entry & I’ll link you to my new blog. But if I find out you’re one of the stalker bitches, you will be deleted.

Consider yourself warned.

oh em gee.

My feet feel like someone set them on FIRE! Does someone…ANYONE.. want to rub them? As long as you’re clean & willing, I’ll take it.

Anyone…I swear someone is stalking my blog – seriously. I get like a MILLION hits on my stat counter, yet I don’t stumble the blog nor do I link it to anywhere. Interesting, eh? I think I have an idea of who is doing what, so with that being said – I’ll be blogging elsewhere.

Find some other entertainment, bitch.

a night away keeps the crazy at bay.

So yeah..like the title says.

I have to work in like 3 hrs…so I’ll try to do the real weekend blog when I get home. If not, it’ll be tomorrow.

But I’m still around…on countdown to sanity. I’ll talk more about the weekend events later.